This is the part 1 of my real life story: how God has transformed my life. He has changed me in sooo many ways. I can only express by the words in this story a bit of what He has done. Many who have known me and met who I was before can attest to the truth of the occurrences of my life. The only thing I have changed are people’s names, the rest is just as it happened.
In 2008 I met a boy named Chris. I had just gotten out of a relationship with my fiancé, Joseph (whom I hurt deeply and regretfully), and was in my last year of college at the University of Central Florida in Orlando. After only knowing Chris and dating for a month, I moved in with his family who happened to be Christian. At that time I was an atheist and lived my life with the philosophy “live life to the fullest.” I lived with Chris for less than a year. Within that year I grew a close friendship with his mom who would tell me about God and invite me to church. I would join her out of kindness but never felt any Christian inclination and continued to deny God. Chris knew the bible stories and the church doctrine and had more of a moral guideline than I did, although this is not saying much. We used to party, drink and smoke together. This is saying very little of just what I considered “living life to the fullest.” I don’t want to communicate too detailed on just what I considered partying. Suffice to say that I was shameless, dirty, and had very few boundaries.
One night Chris and I were speaking about prayer. I remember telling him that I don’t believe in prayer, I don’t feel like anyone’s listening to me, I feel like I’m just talking to myself. This is how I had always felt about prayer. Growing up reciting empty prayers to idols was not deep or inspiring to me.
But that same night I had an incredible dream. It was just as any other dream I’ve had, it didn’t make sense at first. Only the main part is unforgettable and has stayed clear in my mind. At some point in my dream I was outside holding a phone. It was an old blackberry which at the time I didn’t own. It was off, as if completely dead, blank screened. But then out of nowhere these beautiful letters appeared slowly on the screen, first only a small faint light, and then with these amazing letters that no digital font could create. And the words spelled out in Spanish
“Oi, oi, si te escucho, si existo, cree en mi.” (“I heard you, I heard you, I do hear you, I do exist, believe in me.”)
The image of the Eye of God (like the Nebula in space) came in the background, but a million times more incredible than anything we can imagine, as if God has always been watching over me. But it was gone in a split second when the eye went dark and the words disappeared. The eye turned into a dragon’s eye and was the scariest thing I could remember. Even the sky around me in my dream darkened and the clouds were a frightful orange and purple. I woke up in a panic, screaming and waking Chris up, the clock blinked 3 am. I felt as if the darkness wanted to consume me, as if evil beings were watching me. I told Chris in a panic to please turn on the lights; I didn’t want to be in the darkness (spiritually or physically). He took me to his mom’s room where they prayed for me and read my some of the Psalms as I was crying and panicking.
And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams: Acts 2:17
Even with this awesome blessing I continued my own path. I was convinced of Gods existence but I wasn’t converted. All I knew back then was instant gratification, getting my way own and doing my own. Little did I know that this dream was just the beginning of an incredible journey He still has me on. After this dream I did many more regretful acts that I want to share with my friends. It’s a long story, extremely sad and challenging times in my life followed with amazing memories!
Praise the Lord Almighty for His love for us!
And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. Ezekiel 36:26
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